Anyonebutmeplease’s Neighborhood

I broke down and got an iPhone. I have had it with Verizon.

After Verizon dropped a call I was on yesterday for the third time in 5 minutes, I had had it. I was talking with a freelance illustrator for a job I need done, and he was not happy with me. I get dropped calls ALL the time, it's awful. It's at the point where I will avoid calling if/when I need to until the last possible minute. The only place I can use my phone and have a 50-60% chance of not getting dropped is right in the middle of my living room.

The bad:

• another credit inquiry on my record, 3 months after the other one for Verizon. Grrr.
• lots of money spent at Verizon to fix the problem and change phones, cancel the contract. Grrr.
• a higher monthly phone bill, which was the reason I switched in the first place.

• new phone
• no more dropped calls. (hopefully!)
• gonna sell my touch on one of those buy-back sites (which I've used before) so the start up cost for this is only going to end up being only about half. 
• more pictures to post! (iPhone's camera is way better than the one i had)
  

...why matt needs to get his mail forwarded - he received a "save the date" for his friend's wedding in the mail yesterday.

something we would've gone to together. i don't need to see that stuff.

he still hasn't responded to my e-mail.

......I know in my heart that its on ebay for the right price, but it hasnt sold and I thougth for sure that it would what with crimbo coming and all.  Anyhow I have contacted a music shop (a good one that sells nice stuff) thats in Derby and asked them if this any chance of them being interested in buying my guitar in a view to me instead buying a mandolin off them. 

After I told them what guitar I had they said that they were, it all depends on what they are willing to offer for my guitar and what mandolins they have available, Im going tommorrow afternoon to see what happens.  I really want a mandolin what with some holidays coming up soon it would be a good thing to  keep my mind and fingers occupied.

Ill let you know how I get on.

Ive put my Kikis Delivery service Jiji model with calendar next to my blythe dolls, hes really cute.

The holidays are in full effect, so tell us: What's your favorite holiday song? Bonus points if you share it with us!

It wasssss onlyyyyy a winterssss tale, just another winters taleeeee.

are we supposed to start with yays or nays?

let's start with the nays and end on a happy note:

• i've felt like hibernating lately...i'm not excited about winter. even though i just had four days off for thanksgiving, i can't seem to get enough sleep lately.
• finding dean to be more of a hassle than he's worth, at least today i am.
• i've been a little low on cash lately - matt moving out really put a damper on my income and i'm still getting used to not having that extra money coming in. doesn't probably help much that i'm going out twice as much.
• i hated that i had to e-mail him about his mail. but seriously. why wouldn't you get your mail forwarded? that would be like the first thing i did.

yays

• amber's coming over tonight to watch my sex and the city dvd's, eat salad, drink beer and sew her christmas presents. i'm working on my christmas cards.
• friday is the feeding america fundraiser at the 5th ward pub. i'm going with liz...maybe there will be some generous and thoughtful single men there.
• in general, i am doing pretty well...last night was a tough night when it came to matt. i haven't had one in a while. i do still miss him. part of me still wishes he'd come back.
• i have a job, i got a yoga teaching job, my family and i are in generally good health. my apartment is consistently clean and tidy now that there isn't a man there.*

side note:

*it was a little weird having dean at my house on sunday. it was weird having another man that wasn't matt in my apartment in a situation that wasn't entirely platonic. it kind of felt platonic given his sleepiness, but you know what i mean. i almost felt like i was doing something wrong - although matt apparently didn't feel like he was doing anything wrong when he cheated on me.

so much for ending on a happy note.

happy tuesday. 

i had to send matt an e-mail last night. we broke up 5 and a half weeks ago and i'm STILL getting his pay stubs, rolling stone magazines, parking tickets, etc...

i told him that he has to get his mail re-routed or forwarded or whatever. i told him that it's kind of a daily reminder that he's left me and unless he's coming home, he needs to take care of that.

i haven't heard back from him yet - monday nights he goes to art bar to see tom. he has off on tuesdays and will probably check his e-mail around 10 or 11.

i'll let you know if he comes back with a melodramatic response, as i expect he will.

p.s. dean is sweating me...seriously. he called me last night (acknowledging the fact that he screwed up all weekend and asking AGAIN if i'd let him make it up to me) and then he texted me this morning. apparently he was up early so he sent me a good morning text and to tell me that he'll be thinking about me all day, etc.

i need some space. he can't be calling/texting me everyday but i feel bad ignoring it. i'm glad he's going to arizona next week. i need a breather. he's not my boyfriend and i'm determined to keep my options open for a little while. 

So I went to pick up my parcel, it was a parcel not a letter I read the card wrong. It was from my Japanese penpal.  She sent me the cutest thing its a calender thats in the shape of the kitty cat from the anime film "Kiki's Delivery Service" which I love.

Happy Happy.

.......Ive been sent a recorded delivery letter and I dont know what it is.  I have to go to collect it this morning.  Im not expecting anything in the post so Im a little nervous as to why ive been sent a recorded delivery letter. 

My thoughts are in general recorded delivery letters are sent for two reasons.

Something reallyreally nice

Or

Something really really horrible.

Which will it be, will let you know in an hour or so.

I'm pretty sure the following is the funniest thing Work Dad has said in a long time:

I was surprised that I liked Michael.  When you said he was from Europe, I figured he'd come in all, like in tapered pants with square shoes and looking down on us for being American... all smoking a cigarette like they do over there in Europe.... with their hand all flipped up and stuff, all like "oh, I am Michaaael.  Americans are fat." Stop laughing.  You know how they are over there... with their tight dress slacks and fancy shoes and all...

 

Ohhhh, Work Dad.

-K.

...so grab a cup of coffee.

thanksgiving was good - nothing too exciting to note. i met up with amber after the festivities and had a few drinks.

friday i spent the day in my pajamas on the couch. i was getting over that head cold so all day on thanksgiving and on friday, i felt like my head was going to explode from all the pressure. it sucked so bad.

so here's where i get annoyed:

saturday i had plans with dean all week and we were going to go to the art museum, grab dinner and hang out the rest of the night.

i was supposed to pick him up at 2:30. at 1:45 he calls me and says: "i'm sorry, we'll have to do the art museum a different time. something's come up and i'll call you in a little while." i didn't know if that meant an hour, or six, so i waited for an hour and then made plans with amber. i was over at her house at about 3:20, with the beer and pizza that i had picked up for dean and i.

i sent him a text before i left the house, saying that i don't know what's going on, but that i wasn't going to wait by the phone all night, so i was heading to amber's.

i got a phone call at about 4:15 from dean. i didn't answer it because i was pissed - i found out on sunday that what happened was that his mom's friend is doing him a favor and helping him get re-trained in something else because of his workman's comp thing (long story) and she can't do it out of her office, so she has to do it in her free time, and this is when she could meet. the message didn't say all that - he just told me to call him back so he could explain.

i didn't.

then i got a text at about 5:30 - asking me not to be mad, and to please call him so he could explain. i texted him back saying i wasn't mad, just disappointed, especially because i had no explanation. i told him i made plans with amber to see camera obscura tonight and that maybe he could make it up to me sometime next week...i added a smiley face so as not to seem entirely pissed. he said that he was so sorry, that it would never happen again and that he promises to make it up to me.

i said that it was unfortunate that we couldn't get together because i had been looking forward to it all week, and then he called - again...i didn't answer the phone - again. he sent ANOTHER text message apologizing...etc.

valerie from a few years ago - or even a few months ago - would've waited by the phone for him to call, and totally blew it off like it wasn't a big deal, when in reality, i was bummed and mad about it. thanks to amber, she kept me in check. no matter how much i wanted to see him saturday night, i didn't. he has to know that isn't acceptable to me any longer and i don't have the patience for it. so he sat home alone saturday night, and i went to see a band with amber.

this story will continue in a moment, but i'm trying to keep this in chronological order...

i called dean as i had promised sunday afternoon and he didn't answer.

sunday afternoon i met with the group where i'll be teaching yoga. i'm totally excited. looks like i'll have two classes on wednesday nights and possibly one really early on saturday mornings. $20-$25 per class - decent extra money. the people are really nice. we're having an open house on january 2nd and we're opening it up the following week! i'm really excited to finally get to teaching. i won't technically be certified by then, but i'm confident that i'll do fine.

while i was meeting with this group, dean called back, and i missed his call. i texted him, saying that i was sorry i missed his call and i was wondering if he was free tonight. he said yes, i told him i'd pick him up at 6 and we could go back to my house, eat some pizza and have a few beers. after the meeting, i stopped at the store and picked up beer and pizza - again (since i brought it to amber's the night before) - and picked him up at 6.

we went back to my house - he didn't really like the pizza i picked up, ate a piece and a half. he had a beer and a half and at like 8:15 or so he said he was going to call it a night. wtf? he said he was really tired from watching his niece all day and hasn't been sleeping well. he was falling asleep on the couch.

so then i drove him all the way back home. 

at about 11:15 i got a text, he was apologizing for being such a bore, but he's just been really drained lately, etc. he told me to let him know when i'm free this week so we can get together before he goes to see his sister in arizona on monday.

i told him i'd talk to him later and that he should try to get some sleep. normally there'd be some *kisses* or xoxo nonsense, but i left that out.

problem: there shouldn't be this much complication and drama this early into seeing eachother - i know we dated a few years back, but seriously.

my argument: at least he recognizes when he's being an idiot, which is more than i can say for most.

problem: how much longer do i put up with this? or how much of this do i let go before this just isn't worth it any more?

i'm running very hot and cold on this now. not sure if i even want to make plans with him for later in the week. things were so (for lack of a better word) "electric" the first few times we hung out. this weekend was just a little ridiculous and disappointing. i know no man will be perfect, but come on...it shouldn't be this hard.

i'm thinking about calling it quits on this one but i've never been good at that. i guess i wouldn't know how to go about it. i suppose honesty is the best policy, right?