Make it go away!!!
My head is throbbing.
So badly that it kind of makes me want to vomit.
I closed with my manager tonight. I don't know who's worse. Her or New Guy. At least with her I get all the tips and we're generally out of there super early. She's very much a "go to work to work" type. Which is cool and all but when it's as slow as it was tonight a little harmless chit chat would make the night go by a bit faster. Ugh.
Stayed at the Terrorist's house last night. Got there and was in bed within the hour. Which is basically what our relationship has been reduced to over the past week or two. He mentioned it this morning. How it kind of bothers him that we haven't really gotten to spend much QT together. The comment kind of caught me off guard to be honest. I don't really know why but it did. It's not that I hadn't noticed it, it's not that I didn't agree with it, I just hadn't actually admitted it to myself until he vocalized the words. Because of the whole "incapable of adult relationship's" thing I had tricked myself into thinking that it was just sex that I was missing I didn't even think of the emotional aspect. Wow, that snuck up and bit me on the ass. Oh well, life is busy for both of us at the moment and it's only going to get busier. Which sucks, a lot, but there's not much we can do about it. Just have to give it time, things will even out after a bit. I hope.
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Fuck. It's 230a. I was supposed to be in bed by two.
I need to go to bed, I have to be downtown at 10a.
Fuck, that's in less that eight hours.