7 posts tagged “exhausted”

When I'm totally exhausted... like, haven't slept more than 4 hours a night for a week and a half.  Going steadily every day from morning to night exhausted....

The moment when my head hits the pillow and I know I don't have to get up until I want to.

I fucking love that.

but I think I'm getting sick.

I have that yucky brain scrambled, head full, body achy, exhausted feeling.

Today started off good.  I awoke to morning sex.  Yay morning sex.  And that set the general tone for the day, I got to work early (to let Cute Girl go home early because she's covered for me a few days when I was late this week.)  Started rocking out and getting shit done, had to be a bit of bitch to the 19 year old supervisor then she was a bit butt hurt about it but now we're both over it.  It's been pretty steady, which is good.  Tips have been pretty good too.

Now I just feel crappy. 

That's crap.

Now I'm gonna go read post secret and then go back to work.

one of those people who are uber scary looking in the morning.
I mean, I'm not going to win beauty contests or anything but for the most part I pretty much look normal.
Shaz... is not like that.  Shaz wears a lot of make up and does crazy shit to her hair so when she wakes up she's kind of scary looking.  Make up is smeared everywhere.  Big eye makeup circles and hair all crazy.*
Today, I looked like Shaz. 
Before I went out last night I did my make up, my theory was that if I wore a lot of dark eye make up it would help draw attention from the dark bags under my eyes.  Not sure if it worked or not but that's neither here nor there. 
I was exhausted last night, I think I was more tired than drunk actually and did not remove the make up before I went to bed. 
When I went into the bathroom this morning I actually gasped a bit.  I looked like I had been in a fight, both eyes were black with bits of purple, my hair was a fright but yet I had on the prettiest shiny HUGE earrings.

Yes.  I admit.  I did all of this just to have an excuse to show off my earrings.  They're pretty!!!!

I lost my fucking lighter!!.  I stole it from the airport.  (Someone left it on a bench or something probably cause they were going through security.)  I had a shit ton of lighters and they all seem to be slowly disappearing.  I grabbed this one and I was going to stick it with my bowl that way I can stop smoking with matches but the fucking thing is missing.
I think I might have picked it up and moved it when Little T was sleeping in here and now I just can't remember where the fuck I put it.

Okay, I'm getting distracted.

*I'm not picking on Shaz here... She knows she's "un-composed" in the morning... I'm just using her as an example.

I'm exhausted. 
The alarm went off for about 40 mins before I could actually function enough to move.
It's only day 2 though. 
I think I'll get into the swing of things after awhile at least that's what I've found when I worked two jobs in the past.  Not that this is exactly a job.*

Yesterday was a good day.  We hung out, played some video games, watched some Tv.  (By Tv I mean some kid shows on the Internet... very boring but he seems to love them.)  There was some mild boundary pushing yesterday but it's all good because I can push back.  I've watched kids enough to know how they act and though in the past (mainly with my nephews) I was a bit of a softie... I've lost that aspect.  Plus, I know his dad doesn't take any crap so why should I?

Today, not so much of an easy day.  Granted, it's early, and the day could still change but it's a whiny day for sure.  That's alright.  I feel kind of bad though, I can't imagine hanging out with an adult all day makes for a great summer vacation.  I was thinking about going to the park today but it's looking kind of cruddy out so maybe we'll nix that idea but maybe not.  Possibly the library too.  He's a big reader, books would be good, I could use some books too.  I've gotta find some non-tv/computer things for us to do. 

I need coffee. 
I have tomorrow off.  That's awesome.  Granted, the T has some court thing tomorrow night so I'm gonna be watching Little T tomorrow night, at least I don't need to go to work, and I can go to bed early and get more than 5 hours of sleep.  YAY!

I'm getting the urge to roam again.  Hardcore.  Roam or Run?  I'm not sure which.  It doesn't matter 'cause I'm going to ignore it but I think (hope) that by acknowledging it will make it dissipate. 



*It is a job, and I mean no offense to any single parents out there but sitting and blogging or watching movies or going to the park with the kid are all things that I would do without the kid.  I have a point here but I'm loosing it somewhere in the muddle.

 

I'm fucking exhausted.
Not sure why though. 

Had a nice leisurely morning with the Terrorist.  Stayed in bed until 10am-ish then he played the video game that I got him for his birthday and I read the book I haven't been able to keep my nose out of.  Eventually we both showered and headed out to Hillsboro so he could file for custody of Little T. 

Court is tomorrow at 9am.  Keep your fingers crossed!!

My plan tonight was to smoke a bowl and go to bed, but I forgot my stash in my car and even though my car is parked directly in front of the house... I'm too lazy to go get it.  So I guess I'm just going to go to bed.   I'm okay with that.  Nate arrives in 10ish hours and I'd like to get up early enough to clean a bit before going to pick him up.  Plus I told the T I'd be availble to be a phone witness should he need someone to be a character witness.  On the off chance that that happens I don't want to be groggy in the head while on speaker phone to a courtroom full of people.

There are empty cans of Miller High Life around the house.  Very weird.  I haven't drank that shit since Chris and I first moved to PDX and you could get half pitchers for 2.50 at the Marathon.. it feels like eons ago.  Nathan and I need to stop there and get a drink tomorrow.

Nate's on the phone.  He's at the airport now.  Very exciting. 
I'm going to go pluck my eyebrows, talk to him then go to bed.
Nite nite.

9 days until Nathan gets here...
9 days until the Terrorist gets Little T full time...
7 days until the Terrorist's birthday...
3 days until the 4th of July...
2 days until I get a day off...

I went to Ikea today thanks to gunderson bee's suggestion on where to find string lights.  Though they didn't have what I was looking for I still love that place.  I get a hard on every time I'm there.  I wish I had enough stuff to have a reason to buy all of their storage devices.  They're awesome!

Work does not sound appealing today.  Mainly because I'm fucking exhausted and really freaking hungry.  But I guess that's what you get when you don't sleep enough and forget to eat.  Plus the fact that I'm working with the New Guy tonight.  It's just going to be him and I and he's not really trained.  Hopefully it'll be slow. 

Objective:  Make it through work without freaking out... get home, DO NOT TOUCH MP3 PLAYER... no matter how much I may want to, find 5-10 pics to have printed.  Change sheets.  Sleep like a baby.  Look into making Limoncello.

Okay that's a total over exaggeration but man I'm exhausted.